plastic surgery

one of my coworkers suggested i get plastic surgery...

on my knee.

is there even such a thing??

i finally see my doctor (doctor #4, the pamf one) again on monday, the first visit since the initial checkups post-op (to inject cortisone in my knee & to make sure all stitches were ok, etc.) honestly, the thing i'm scared most to hear him say is that nothing is wrong with my knee. that's not what you'd expect, right? but i know my knee is far from working properly, and if he glosses over my problems like my first doctor did, i have no other orthopedic doctor to turn to - he was the last out of my back pocket. i think the way i was treated by the first doctor has just totally made me paranoid over other doctors' bedside manners.

and i know i've said it before - but this whole knee thing has been such the thorn in my flesh over the past 2.5 years.

God's response to Paul when he pleaded to have his thorn taken out?

"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

and Paul's response to God's words?

Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Gotta keep posting that to remind myself... to find delight in this situation. and actually, one praise that's come out of this is that i've been able to help several other people who have had knee problems or have torn their ACLs. practically everyone at my company who has been working there for a while knows about all my knee surgeries (seriously - i still get stopped by random strangers in the cafeteria or around the halls asking how my knee is), and so many people have asked me about rehab, doctors, and more. and i'm glad to NOT refer them to my first doctor, and refer them to other doctors who i know are covered by our insurance and can do a good job. and i got everyone at our company 60 sessions of PT/year instead of our previous crappy 20. so praise God that i've been able to help other people avoid my situation. :)

anyway, totally different topic, i can't believe ev's big day is finally coming up! even better, it gave me the perfect excuse to not have to come into work on saturday (quarter end)! woohoo! let the good times begin.